Gifts from Miss Rose

When I dropped Rocky off at Baby School, Miss Rose had a gift bag waiting for me.  It was on the shelf, under his cubby.  It was an unassuming brown paper bag, decorated with glitter and a green bow.

When I reached into the bag, I pulled out this.

And this.

I had to hold back the tears when I saw the snow globe.  The picture on the left was from his first day there, when I had to go back to school.  It was a hard day for me.  I had a broken heart.  The picture on the right was taken recently.  How thoughtful is she?  I was able to blink back the tears and thank her.  I took out the snowman and beamed over how adorable it is.  His little foot as the body of the snowman is precious!  I thanked her and told her how much I appreciated those gifts.  I wished her a Merry Christmas and kissed Rocky good-bye.  Then, I headed down the corridor and began to cry.

I’ve tried to hold it together all morning.  I’ve never been so excited for a Christmas in all of my life.  I am overwhelmed with the anticipation of Baby’s First Christmas and being in the planning stages of Baby’s First Birthday.  I am looking forward to the weeks to come yet want to some how put on the brakes.  This is happening too fast.  I’ve heard all along that I would feel this way but didn’t expect it to smack me in the face.  I won’t ever again have these firsts and it feels like they are slipping through my fingers.  I am feeling equal parts happy and sad today.  The tears keep coming.  Happy and sad tears rolled into a snotty, puffy-eyed ball of gratitude, that’s me today.

Happy Friday!

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5 Responses to Gifts from Miss Rose

  1. Bev says:

    I am SO happy for you, and I bet you are doing a great job taking in the moments. I can’t wait to see what you have planned for the first birthday! Merry Christmas!!!

  2. Ashley says:

    Such sweet, thoughtful gifts! I totally understand- and it just keeps going faster and faster! Enjoy your first Christmas together!!

  3. Christina says:

    I’m finally returning to the land of the living and catching up with some “old friends” and HOLY COW I’ve missed quite the year for you! Congratulations Mama! What an amazing story. I still have tears in my eyes from reading about your first meet with Maya.

    Christina (formerly from 2nd Embryo Adoption) and more recently from carterjamesleonhardt.blogspot.com

  4. I can completely understand the happy tears that were unleashed by these sweet gifts.

    I hope your first Christmas as a mom, and the start of 2013, has been endlessly fulfilling :-)

  5. BWUB says:

    Sorry I’m coming in late. I LOVE the little gifts…so very thoughtful and precious. I’m sure you had a wonderful Christmas and you know, it all goes fast and will continue to go fast. It just does. But you will remember. You will. I still remember standing in the Wal Mart aisle buying Baby’s 1st Birthday paper plates and cups for Scout, trying to hold back my sobs as tears ran down my cheeks. The memory is crisp.
    Best wishes to you!

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